I wonder. When a man meets a new woman who he really vibes with, does he fast forward and say, "Is she the one?" Is this purely a female phenomenon? I don't know a single woman in my world that doesn't. I have been guilty too many times. I did it this past weekend as a matter of fact. I looked Mr. New in the eyes and let my mind wander... I am not sure I could enter into anything vaguely relationship-like without thinking it could end up somewhere significant.
Is that my fatal flaw? I wonder if I was looking for something temporary, if he would appear in my life. where ever he is, what ever he is doing, I wonder if he isn't looking at the same sunset I am wondering about me. It's not likely, but a girl can imagine. Only thing i know is that i cannot wait to meet him. To experience that last first kiss, the long walk down the aisle, the first cry of our second child (already got sweet pea.)
I want to have babies, and experience the joy of waiting for the arrival of a child that was planned and wanted by both of us. I cry in the dark sometimes and wonder how long until i meet him. Do i know him already? Are we slowly working our way to each other? (it sure as hell isn't happening rapidly...) What am I being prepared for. How will I know him when I meet him? Will the love come in a tidal wave or in a drizzle?
Lord, wherever he may be tonight, send him on his way to me, I'll try to be ready for him, meet him half way!
